Vegan Cheese! Delicious… first try.

Busy weekend we cooked chicken tacos.

I had my first bread with a soft taco, but this time using lettuce. I have to be careful with both to make sure I chomp into tiny pieces, breads and lettuce and flat things can open up an cause blockages.


How good is this?

I caved last night and had a damn calippo, No Weight change, lost ketosid between that and the Martini! so Today i started planning icy poles, tea as the base, stevia for sweetening. This is the Chai tea @ Almond milk and it’s delicious!

I also have mint and ginger on the freezer for tomorrow.

Saw the bariatric surgeon today he is very happy with my progress and says I should be off blood pressure tabs soon, can’t wait!


Using the 20ml measure I have made a mini martini to celebrate 130kg. That’s 30kg off. I know there are only 9 of you following me and of that I reckon no one does daily checks on this but I feel I owe it to you to post before and after shots. I a tracking it all in an app but those shots have my shirt off and i’m not comfy yet so:

This photo is from September at Tulip Festival, Also my profile Pic. The operation was October 29th so soon after this photo i dropped five kilos with shakes to prep for operation.

The next photo is from last weekend in the city, where I was about five kilos heavier than now.

While maintaining ketosis, I am dropping 900grams to 1.1 kilos a day.

I know this Martini will kill ketosis for the night but it’s my first drink in about 10 weeks and it’s smaller than usual and it’s the only one i’m having…. My mini Martini with ice to keep it cold cause i have to drink it slow :p

Oh those olives! This one is shaken (i prefer it for the ice coldness) Bombay and Cinzano 2:1 with 3! Green pitted olives! Yum!

Happy 130 KG 🙂

Weight loss and Ketosid

The weight loss has slowed down but holding at 132kg down from 160. I’ll post photos soon, hard to do cause perfectionist brain not satisfied yet….

But i noticed as I have started eating solids that weight loss slowed down. I am trying to keep proteins high but taking too many carbs in, so i have reassessed and grabbed stuff to make more of my vegan slice and some protein balls for snacks.

Photos to come… Today’s minimeal: a quarter of a “healthy burger”

well the photo has too much I are about a third of it and that was enough…. we will make our own at home next cause I enjoy them more anyhow… this was my first red meat meal and a: Very heavy b: Very filling c: very greasy in the mouth!

The recipies book behind it is the one i got from the nutrichew website… very good reading

Today’s Mini-meal

Onion, two very small slices diced,

One garlic clove, diced,

Sautéed in olive oil,

100 grams of roast chicken breast

egg whisked with soy milk

salt and pepper

guacamole added to flat frita!

very delicious, serving size is slightly smaller than i have been having, but i have been feeling too full with my portions, so today’s lunch was “just” a poached egg and this is dinner.

I have diced pork marinating in curry paste/coconut which I plan to slow cook tomorrow. I have been looking into making a flat bread with millet flour for extra protein, i am assuming mountain bread has a variation which would suit but i’d like to make it myself. Recipies i have looked at ask for same things as home made bread, but cook like a pancake.

I think the secret to mini meals is preparing and storing rich flavoured high protein foods which can be added to meals to make it feel/look like a full meal on a mini plate.

The chicken for eg we buy in bulk 500gms, the dogs get it for breakfast and i punch a bit for my meals. It is kept in airtight tupperware and replaces every 2-3 days. We get it from coles, it is their previous days chicken cut up for selling in the deli.

The guacamole we make weekly and keep in airtight tupperware.

The Garlic easy… one clove. The onion has been glad wrapped and out in the fridge.

The book I bought had a lot of suggestions but they basically come back to: eggs, fish, peanuts, muesli so a lot of it is the same meal with slight variations.


So, this was a staple before my operation… then it was a snack and it had two eggs, beans, bacon, toast and cheese…

now this is the Post Gastric Sleeve version:

One Poached Egg, two table spoons of baked beans, one table spoon of guacamole.

This is dinner. Remember Stomach is now 180mg to 200mg in size.

I had a poached egg for breakfast as well as a weetbix and a little bit of pear purée, but i have not eaten since, only had liquids.

It’s very filling and has a lot of protein in it.

egg= 13gm

Beans= 1.5gm (assuming 30gm of beans)

Guacamole: 0.5

so i am going to go with 15gms of protein in that meal.

The daily target is 60gms.

I obviously haven’t counted sugar or calories. I am aware this is not the lowest carbs possible but it’s definitely lower than adding bread for eg.

I am now dairy free so no parmesan!

The guacamole is made fresh by us every week and kept in the fridge in air tight containers, we squash avocados, add lemon, lime, salt and olive oil. Kids take it to school with carrots and they generally have it with tacos once a week.

For my first poached egg I am very stoked!

The dietician advises me some people find eggs difficult post surgery, my advice is to eat slow, take small bites, chew a lot and wait a minute if possible between mouthfuls!

It’s amazing how many habits I have broken while thinking of all this.

Today’s notable bad habit… loading more food into my mouth to chew while still chewing or swallowing food…. overwork/overfill the stomach and eating muscles!

Happy eating 🙂

I hate eating…

I am down 25kg. Yeah that’s beyond awesome. After trying many different things it’s great to have something that works.

But I think it’s the dramatic change to the psychology of the eating, as well as the physiology of eating which makes such a difference.

The smaller stomach obviously helps a lot. I believe on top of that, the recovered period of six weeks before solids helps as well. But i reckon the biggest de-motivator or my old eating habits is… the mind.

Eating now needs a lot of planning, a lot of thinking, a lot of feeling and a lot of time between swallows. It means sitting amongst a bunch of people who are all stuffing their faces while you sit there with a smile and no appetite. It is far from easy and it is nauseating at the same time.

Because eating now come with a decent serve of nausea each time. And burping. and phlegm. A bit of farting. A bit of the runs. but definitely nausea and pain. I am at week four and i have had a few things off the list from weeks five and six (poached eggs. a prawn, some rice!) but generally a tablespoon. I have drank a little fluid while eating too… and it all just makes it awful! It’s not bloat anymore if i overeat (i have managed to overeat twice) it’s so uncomfortable you just never wanna do it.

it also put a big focus on the quality of what you are putting in… something my very forceful yet very correct diet psychologist reminded me of at our sessions:

300 gms of donut goes through you in a moment and does not leave you satisfied

300 grams of leafy green clean you out while going through you and leave you mostly satisfied

300 gms of protein in the form of eggs, meat, legume go slowly through you and leave you very satisfied

my stomach will now hold 200ml.

that’s roughly one poached egg and two sips of juice. Or like just now, one weetbix, one tablespoon of purées pear and one half poached egg.

and i am full, not i overfill, cause i judge with my eyes and mind, if i wait till i feel full it’s too late, cause i feel sick!

Anyhow, all this has inspired me to post regarding fibromyalgia, fitness, gastric sleeve and wellbeing. Over the last few weeks i have been reading up on diet after gastric sleeve and also looking into high quality unprocessed foods which are beneficial in small doses like i am

forced to eat now. so i will post based on this. With Photos 🙂

Fibro Flare :(


All that diverticulitis pain has my hyper vigilance hackles up and i am getting pain for simple things… tors in shoes, knuckles and holding something, feet, knees, hips when i get up, lower back all day… i’m in the pain flare:(. Anyhow spent the weekend eating, lightly but eating. Today is the start of week three and back on my shakes and my completed vegan low carb bar. I have worked it out to roughly 20carbs per 5cm slice which is just one a day, two in emergencies. It is setting i the fridge but i have tried it and it is delicious….. ingredients attached

however now in a crappy state. To tired to sit up, to awake to sleep, i have showered, things and twitching and hurting for no reason… usually when i am like this i eat comfort food and binge on tv or something…… can’t right now though


might watch some comedy in netflix…. anyhow three weeks till op 🙂

ah well during the day i always have this view. Melbourne was sunnier today the heat is coming back to us finally 26degrees celsius!

it’s like a painting!

but nighttime now 😦 Netflix…..

Day 1 (actually Day 2)

Thanks for Joining me 😀

I am a male, mid thirties, with excess weight on my body. The focus of this blog is my journey from an oversized, overweight Australian male to a Brad Pitt/Ricky Martin hybrid clone. I have a sense of humour which is dry, irrational and surreal at times, i have been through some very tough times in the last three years but also found strength in the battle. I am supported by a superhero wife and two adorable and incredible children, as well as some pets!

I am based in Melbourne Australia. I have seen other blogs covering the same thign as I am but the preason for me is two(many)fold: 1. to keep me honest. My relationship with food has never been ideal, but I have been able to maintain a “healthy” body shape and weight with vigourous excesrise. Therefore, it has not “mattered” what I ate so long as I ket physical. In the past when I have been overweight I just worked harder at the gym, playing sport, walking daily, dancing, and within a few months, back to happy. I will also say my relationship with my body has never been about health – its mostly been about stamina and pushing myself. This was all good an well while I lived an active lifestyle, but when I moved to sedentry work about 12 years ago, I stacked on the weight and have not been able to get it off – approximately 30 kilos of it.

Now that was not so bad in itself, for a lot of people being at 130KG is difficult, but I am 6 foot tall and very broad shoulders, my build would have to be a a schwarzenegger if I were discilined enough with weights and lifting. Well if schwarzenneger did less lifting and fitness and more sedentry work and eating, potentially he would look more like me!

I wouldnt say I ate a lot of junk food, but I did eat a lot. I would often have a
“second dinner” for example. Or eat right before bed. Or have extra helpings. As opposed to snacking a lot I would just eat a family block of chocolate – but like I was saying, staying very active meant i would not put on much weight, or it was easy to burn away.

However I would see the difference when I trained with others. When iWas younger I enjoyed acting, dancing and even taught dance for a few years. My bachelors degree was arts with perfomance as the majors so i spent a lot of time working with others completing spoken word, movement pieces and later ballroom and latin dance. I always found myself puffed out and sweaty before everyone else, fatiguing before everyone else, and i just assumed I could never be as fit or “healthy” as everyone else, so why try. When I would try, I would just get really fatigued or hurt a muscle, pull a muslce, sprain an ankle, seemed to happen to me a lot.

I found my niche in swimming and cycling. I think because you can cycle for hours and not really impact your body, sure my hips and ankles and knees get sore, but not impact like jogging. Swimming was altogether even better for impact, but skin conditions sould make this difficult to do more than twice a week. And of course walking I loved to walk a lot. I would maintain 30 min a day and usually 1 hour.

However I still continued to eat “whatever I like”. At my “fittest” I was a social dance teacher. I would hit the gym twice a week for light weights and a swim. I would cycle about 20Kms to work and back daily. I would teach 5 – 8 hours a day and train twice a week and usually host a “dance party” every fortnight. Then our social group would go dancing at least once a week for hours after teaching all day. My eating back then was usuall skip breakfast. A large “lunch”. An even larger “dinner” and a meal before bed.

A large lunch might be two curries, rice and 2 naan bread. Dinner might be two large pizzas to myself. The before be dsnack could have been leftovers in fridge or souvlakin on the way home. I never understood how I ate so much back then just that I would be very hungry when I wanted to eat. I would do all this and maintain a relatively “fit” body shape – about 95-105KG, so I had a tummy, but I had a lot of muscle and I had stamina, lots of it. There were some nights i wouldnt sleep and just go back to work and do it all over again.

Then came the year of changes. I got serious with my now wife, we planned a family, a marriage and a house and it all happened in the same year. I also started working sedentry jobs. Living the Artist/Dancer lifestyle till then meant i did not have much (read any) wealth behind me, so I moved to corporate jobs with commissions and ended up in finance through the major banks. Now to be clear I am not complaining about the jobs I did, I think they all paid very well for an essentially “unskilled” workforce, and with a quick study of the best in the industry I realised the way to make back the years of wealth I had not earned which I wanted to put towards my marriage, my house and my family – Time, human hours, workload.

My attitude was pretty simple, the more time I can put in, the more transactions I can process, the better the commission. I entered banking at the end of the push-sell era and learned the consultative sales approach – which is essentially asking people what they want and helping them get it. With support from my wife i would work extra hours 3 times a week, and extra weekends when I could. Overtime this became my benchmark for working in finance. However with this attitude I would also take short breaks or work through my breaks, eating rushed meals and a lot of the time, locally bought easy meals. The weight started stacking on, I stopped excersising so much and my work became very sedentry. Within a year i had moved from a 105KG body to a 120KG body.

We then got Married and soon after had our first child. e also settled on our home in that time so a lot of new stresses crept into my life. However I was determined to stop putting on weight so I started cycling again, to and from work 3 times a week was a 40KM ride return, and that helped a lot. I was able to maintain my weight around the 120KG for three years till a new job oppourtuity arose – business banking. This is what I had been working towards, but the learning curve from home loan mortgage lending to business lending was very deep – and in that first year of busienss banking the weight piled on till I was 135KG. I started to try doctors advice for weightloss with medication, jenny craig, etc… However I still believed for my body shape and size, I was relatively fit. My doctior kept warning me I was obese and close to morbid obesity, but tryibng new things was not helping. As life goes on I got distratced and promptly forgot about it, but I maintained my weight at this range for about 7 more years.

Then in 2015 I started to feel pain. My exercising had diminished to walking every second or third day, and I played no sport and danced maybe once a month with my wife. It started as shoulder pain, or feeling like I had put my back out, or my hip would feel like it was lop sided, or my feet would hurt for a long time and then my legs. After six months of this pain and consultation with the doctor I had some xrays done, the diagnosis was little bones in my neck were stabbing the nerves that travel through my body and causing pain. I trusted my doctors, got very erganomic at work, started forcing myself to take breaks at least every two hours, walked 30 minutes a day and got back into cycling when I could once or twice a week. However the pain kept getting worse and then became irrational. Suddenyl things would start hurting that I had done nothing to them, and feeling like they had been hit, sprained, jolted even though they had not. Lying in bed for more than 3 – 4 hours became painful. Sitting at my desk working became painful, especially in my shoulder, head and neck (I would type for 4 – 6 – 8 hours a day) This all got so bad, the doctors could not figure it out, I would already drink whiskey about once a month but it became weekly and then daily. I would get drunk enough to feel little pain so I could sleep at night. I kept this quiet from my wife because I was getting very scared, this pain was not going away, the headaches would start about halfway through the day and I was starting to get tired.

In 2016 the tiredness became a true constant. We had three weeks of work off for christmas break and I remeber coming back to work and my boss remarking I looked like $#!T.

OK exhausted after typing for so long! Did have a break for dinner, i’ll post photos later and finish this story 😀