Fibro Flare :(


All that diverticulitis pain has my hyper vigilance hackles up and i am getting pain for simple things… tors in shoes, knuckles and holding something, feet, knees, hips when i get up, lower back all day… i’m in the pain flare:(. Anyhow spent the weekend eating, lightly but eating. Today is the start of week three and back on my shakes and my completed vegan low carb bar. I have worked it out to roughly 20carbs per 5cm slice which is just one a day, two in emergencies. It is setting i the fridge but i have tried it and it is delicious….. ingredients attached

however now in a crappy state. To tired to sit up, to awake to sleep, i have showered, things and twitching and hurting for no reason… usually when i am like this i eat comfort food and binge on tv or something…… can’t right now though


might watch some comedy in netflix…. anyhow three weeks till op 🙂

ah well during the day i always have this view. Melbourne was sunnier today the heat is coming back to us finally 26degrees celsius!

it’s like a painting!

but nighttime now 😦 Netflix…..

What’s in it for Fat?


So autopsy on yesterday reveals a hidden clue:

yesterday two things were happening:

  1. IBS & Diverticulitis (pain in intestines and gas and lots o dat!)
  2. My first shake was different. I wished it in the ninja wizard with lots of water and drank it over about 20 minutes, but i pushed past full!



AND that was the clue for my food thoughts – associated nerves in my belly caused associated feeling codes thoughts to appear like – oh you are over full, you feel sick, your failing, why keep going

also that feeling of fullness faded later and i had post fulness depression! 1. Self diagnosis for the day! but as i write it i realise its true – when i lose that fullness feeling i feel like i have to replace it soon. And if I don’t i will feel hunger and then pain and then ibs and reflux. And burping!

It’s like my body punishes me for not eating – I get anxious and nauseous and feel like the only thing that will solve it is food, predominately carby protein sandwiches…..


JBW I dunno whose songs these are but they followed me on soundcloud and they are AWESOME!

That feeling of fullness is like a drug itself! I imagine myself like an overstuffed black labrador I once knew called Jack. He would like with his huge full belly right in front of the heater, so close you would think his hair was singing. I see myself and stick my tongue out lovingly dripping drool, remembering the feeling of all the food i just ate while lying on my side like a happy dog! WOOF!

Well anyhow, this is then associated with comfort and a distinct removal of my then current discomforts – Anxiety, IBS diverticulitis, pain…. so about 11pm i made myself sandwiches and crumpets and stopped right there.

When i quit smoking back in my 20s it was like this. i would be ok for a while then i would hit a stumbling block. I would have to leave someones social circle for a while, or stop going to certain places, or even eat certain foods because i associated it all with cigarettes.

So I know this lesson and I am taking note –

i am

a: learning from it and

b: applying it.

  1. Diverticulitis: I have been having all the dairy shakes – I am now swapping out to only dairy free. That’s what the diverticulitis felt like it was triggered by, as it has been before, but in the past only with Chilli.
  2. I made another fluffy shake this morning, but I am keeping busy doing something I am passionate about while drinking it – Posting this! I am drinking it much slower now and I have to get used to that for post operation when i wont be able to feel my tummy so easily.
  3. I have also only poured a third of it and put the rest in the fridge. I will drink it slowly over the next couple of hours, but I will keep it slow for that reason.


Lets look for good results 😀


This is no joke, this is the song that just came on soundcloud, so relevant – how funny i never listen to rap/trip hop whatever this awesome shit is, i am usually listening to electronica and aphextwin but this, is incredible!


Vegan Cheese! Delicious… first try.

Busy weekend we cooked chicken tacos.

I had my first bread with a soft taco, but this time using lettuce. I have to be careful with both to make sure I chomp into tiny pieces, breads and lettuce and flat things can open up an cause blockages.


How good is this?

I caved last night and had a damn calippo, No Weight change, lost ketosid between that and the Martini! so Today i started planning icy poles, tea as the base, stevia for sweetening. This is the Chai tea @ Almond milk and it’s delicious!

I also have mint and ginger on the freezer for tomorrow.

Saw the bariatric surgeon today he is very happy with my progress and says I should be off blood pressure tabs soon, can’t wait!


Using the 20ml measure I have made a mini martini to celebrate 130kg. That’s 30kg off. I know there are only 9 of you following me and of that I reckon no one does daily checks on this but I feel I owe it to you to post before and after shots. I a tracking it all in an app but those shots have my shirt off and i’m not comfy yet so:

This photo is from September at Tulip Festival, Also my profile Pic. The operation was October 29th so soon after this photo i dropped five kilos with shakes to prep for operation.

The next photo is from last weekend in the city, where I was about five kilos heavier than now.

While maintaining ketosis, I am dropping 900grams to 1.1 kilos a day.

I know this Martini will kill ketosis for the night but it’s my first drink in about 10 weeks and it’s smaller than usual and it’s the only one i’m having…. My mini Martini with ice to keep it cold cause i have to drink it slow :p

Oh those olives! This one is shaken (i prefer it for the ice coldness) Bombay and Cinzano 2:1 with 3! Green pitted olives! Yum!

Happy 130 KG 🙂

Weight loss and Ketosid

The weight loss has slowed down but holding at 132kg down from 160. I’ll post photos soon, hard to do cause perfectionist brain not satisfied yet….

But i noticed as I have started eating solids that weight loss slowed down. I am trying to keep proteins high but taking too many carbs in, so i have reassessed and grabbed stuff to make more of my vegan slice and some protein balls for snacks.

Photos to come… Today’s minimeal: a quarter of a “healthy burger”

well the photo has too much I are about a third of it and that was enough…. we will make our own at home next cause I enjoy them more anyhow… this was my first red meat meal and a: Very heavy b: Very filling c: very greasy in the mouth!

The recipies book behind it is the one i got from the nutrichew website… very good reading

MiniMeal :)

Flathead tail, light pan fry in olive oil and thyme, lemon juice on top

Boiled carrots, sautéed in butter and honey,

mash potato, soy milk salt and pepper.

added soy sauce

delicious, though serving was a little too big could not finish it

Today’s Mini-meal

Onion, two very small slices diced,

One garlic clove, diced,

Sautéed in olive oil,

100 grams of roast chicken breast

egg whisked with soy milk

salt and pepper

guacamole added to flat frita!

very delicious, serving size is slightly smaller than i have been having, but i have been feeling too full with my portions, so today’s lunch was “just” a poached egg and this is dinner.

I have diced pork marinating in curry paste/coconut which I plan to slow cook tomorrow. I have been looking into making a flat bread with millet flour for extra protein, i am assuming mountain bread has a variation which would suit but i’d like to make it myself. Recipies i have looked at ask for same things as home made bread, but cook like a pancake.

I think the secret to mini meals is preparing and storing rich flavoured high protein foods which can be added to meals to make it feel/look like a full meal on a mini plate.

The chicken for eg we buy in bulk 500gms, the dogs get it for breakfast and i punch a bit for my meals. It is kept in airtight tupperware and replaces every 2-3 days. We get it from coles, it is their previous days chicken cut up for selling in the deli.

The guacamole we make weekly and keep in airtight tupperware.

The Garlic easy… one clove. The onion has been glad wrapped and out in the fridge.

The book I bought had a lot of suggestions but they basically come back to: eggs, fish, peanuts, muesli so a lot of it is the same meal with slight variations.


So, this was a staple before my operation… then it was a snack and it had two eggs, beans, bacon, toast and cheese…

now this is the Post Gastric Sleeve version:

One Poached Egg, two table spoons of baked beans, one table spoon of guacamole.

This is dinner. Remember Stomach is now 180mg to 200mg in size.

I had a poached egg for breakfast as well as a weetbix and a little bit of pear purée, but i have not eaten since, only had liquids.

It’s very filling and has a lot of protein in it.

egg= 13gm

Beans= 1.5gm (assuming 30gm of beans)

Guacamole: 0.5

so i am going to go with 15gms of protein in that meal.

The daily target is 60gms.

I obviously haven’t counted sugar or calories. I am aware this is not the lowest carbs possible but it’s definitely lower than adding bread for eg.

I am now dairy free so no parmesan!

The guacamole is made fresh by us every week and kept in the fridge in air tight containers, we squash avocados, add lemon, lime, salt and olive oil. Kids take it to school with carrots and they generally have it with tacos once a week.

For my first poached egg I am very stoked!

The dietician advises me some people find eggs difficult post surgery, my advice is to eat slow, take small bites, chew a lot and wait a minute if possible between mouthfuls!

It’s amazing how many habits I have broken while thinking of all this.

Today’s notable bad habit… loading more food into my mouth to chew while still chewing or swallowing food…. overwork/overfill the stomach and eating muscles!

Happy eating 🙂